I'm head over heels in love...

Ever heard of the baby blues? Well... they suck.  About 2 months after I had Estela, I developed some pretty bad anxiety. Of course at the time, I didn't realize what I was going through was anxiety/depression and that I probably should have got some help for it. It was mainly due to the fact that I couldn't produce enough milk for my daughter and the fact that I was starving her for the first two months of her life. The doctor threatened to put her in the hospital at her two month appointment if I didn't supplement with formula. I pulled through once she was about 7 months old and seriously it was like a cloud over my life had lifted.    For the first time, I remember laughing and smiling at her pediatrician (before this I thought she was a spawn of satan). The past two weeks have been awful. Well not exactly two weeks... The Friday after I gave birth, I felt like I could do anything. Sebastian slept a 5 hour stretch the night before, I was home from the hos

What the heck? I'm 30 freaking weeks. This pregnancy has been SO much easier than the first. "How" you ask? Let me tell you Estela: Sick till 18 weeks This baby: Sick till 8 and 1/2 isn weeks Estela: 8 cavities and a HORRIBLE receding gum. This baby: 2 cavities (guys I brush 2-3 times a day with an electric toothbrush and Floss every stinkin' day. I just have bad teeth ok??!?!?!) Estela: Ate top ramen a least 2 times a week. This baby: Eating fresh raw green beans like they are candy. Estela: She had hiccups at least 3 times a day This baby: hiccups every few days. I'm SO glad that the first trimester is WAY over and I never want to see a taco bell for the rest of my life. (I accidentally ate a crunch wrap supreme every day one week after rehearsal) Estela loves her baby brother SO much. She loves to feel him move and kisses my belly. She is always talking about how he will sleep in her bed when he is born. I won't lie. I am star